Whoa (2)

whoa people, so dusty here, 10 months huh? lol, so i just read my last post, and i said that i was getting 2015 vibe for this year, BIG NOPE. But hey at least i get to know myself better, i know my weakness, starting to understand this voice inside my head better, i can actually say no even though sometimes i still cant but hey baby steps right?

one of my moment in 2017 is that i can somewhat see myself on other people, and i kinda hate it? i mean i can see part of me on someone and i hate the fact that i hate that part of me? gosh it's so ugly glad i somewhat changed.

talking about change, i remember that in 7th grade i said that i hate changing, boom(bayah) it backfired. i regret not changing, maybe i changed but i didnt know, but hey maybe i didnt change at all?

like finally i got the chance to like start over from the very beginning, new environment, new people, so many opportunities, yet everytime they pass i just waved.

it's just a bit sad, cause lately i've been thinking. people usually graduate after >4 years on uni, im on my third year already, which means it's like im less than a year away from another 'goodbye' in which i hate so much. 

i regret not knowing my friends earlier. i regret not taking chances just because im afraid. i regret not taking chances just because MY LAZY ASS. i regret for not making this uni life more memorable. 

bottom line, i regret everything. how i wish i could go back in time and tell myself 

'ayy yo, move your lazy ass, go make new friends, you'll regret it later. how do i know? cause im you fatass'

well but it aint too late right? but yea it's somewhat hard but hey i can do this (i hope)